self-expression

One of my primary frustrations with speaking a different language, especially a language that I have far from mastered and don’t feel at ease with, is that when speaking it I have such trouble communicating myself. I don’t mean my words, necessarily, I just mean it’s very difficult to carry my personality through. When I’m not comfortable in a situation I tend to become shy and self-aware. That’s how I am when I’m trying to speak Spanish, especially with a local. Locals are the best people to practice with, especially if you find one that speaks a little bit of English and is willing to be patient with you. I’ve encountered a couple who have offered to help. Unfortunately, somehow we always end up speaking English. So I guess, now that I think about it, maybe it would be better to talk to someone who didn’t speak a word of English. It would be far more frustrating and ridiculous, but it would be more advantageous for me. Also, flirting in a different language is not easy. Miscommunication and awkward silences are something I need to come to accept. There is an upside however. When you are having trouble with your words you can always rely on body language: smiles, laughs, eye contact. It enhances your other senses that much more.